Maybe i am just not meant to be....

Bear with me people... Bear with me...

I am having those kind of feeling lousy , bad mood again ... Honestly , this thing that happened to me just now kinda hit me quite hard...I had never felt so humilated , so insulted before, other than what they did to me in Church ....( regards in playin music and getting involved in 40DOP)

I was at Actors Bar with Andrew T and we were enjoying ourselves.. i got to know couple of nice ppl there... Jeffery ( a vocal) good singer.. Jonathan ( from indonesia 20 yrs old .play keyboard really well) For those who dont know, Actors bar is a club at Boat quay and it is a place where anyone can jam and play in there)

Jeffery was talking to me .. asking me what do i do and so on ... I told him i am a drummer and so on ... he say .. "Hey you must play later... I wanna watch you play ... "
Hours past...He then called for me to go to the drumset and play for the next song.. but the drummer there refuses to go ... he sat there and he told me " I play one more song then your turn " I was kinda embarassed because here i am standing in the stage area ... after my name was being announced.. and when i am there.. i was made into a fool....

Fine... i walked back to my seat ... the song ended.. so I walked to the drumset.. get ready to play for the next band....and in came a group of guys... They literally took over the whole place. be it bassist, guitarist , and i was sitting there... getting ready ... they purposely choose a samba beat... i cant play that.... Andrew cant play that too... we had no choice but to move back to our seat.... We left soon after.

Can you imagine how i felt going there to the set twice and being chased away in public....

Damn ... maybe i am just not a good musician ...


Robin emmanuel

7/5/06