2 weeks

Tough time dont last .. tough people do ... Tats A tagline tat Angel ( one of my frd) uses...

HOW TRUE IS THAT ... Time wont stop.. or should i say Good times will not last too.. what would stay is the memory.. :) .. Just Like Winter.. The coldest season .... What can be coldest , darkest than that ?

Believe me .. My winter was here for a month or two now.... Apparently both Diona and myself have been putting up a brave front ...

For those who dont know... Our Daughter ( Faith) was dignosed with Ancenepaly and apparently we have to remove her from Diona's Womb Via Induced labour..This happened 2 weeks back.. ( Faith was Five months then )

When i first heard about her condition .. I was like ... Oh Great .. Whats Next ?

People around me , My families, Church mates , Frds , Colleagues , even Face book buddies from all over the world started encouraging me ...and Prayed for my family...

Eventually she left us on the 14th of Nov...

What pain me the most was when i see her little body... She was so beautiful .. I said a prayer for her , commiting her to God and i burst out in tears...

Such a lovely Angel .. But Gone too soon..

As times goes... I totally understand the feeling of all parents... Its tough being a parent... Its tougher to Handle the truth.. its Even tougher to Accept that its God's Will at time... Sometimes, we all live in the World of Denial...There is always Alot of What if ... But the truth is .. Who are we to be in control?

For my whole 31 yrs... I have never felt so peaceful.. Trust me , God Showered me with the peace when he Took Faith away ..
I was thinking .. WOW .. Abraham Listens to God and wanted to Sacrifice his only son then to God... He obeys.. And its not easy ... Which parent in the world would want to lose ur own kid...



Am i glad and proud Last Sunday , when Diona Stepped up and went to Share with the Church about Faith and what happen.. it was amazing because i know it have been tough and its not easy to take this first step to be open about it ..


Anyways..

Two weeks have past.. I have been the wall , the pillar... And i finally fall ill... Fever, Flu, Sore throat... And just Today .. My dear Boy lucas was admitted to Hospitial For high Fever.. He is still having the Fever as i am writing this right now... I cant be there to help him too much cause i am also having a fever ... Diona is currently the first line of defense...

Anyways tats just an update...


Whatever it is... i have learnt to Pray , Obey and Seek God's vision..


Faith, My dear child... U will be fine in heaven... am i glad that Pastor is going to conducted a mini service for u this tuesday and u will finally rest in peace in heaven.. U must be good and be strong :) I see u my love

Lucas, my dear boy, U have to be tough .. Stand up ... Pick urself up.. take your medication and get well soon ya ? Angels and Faith will be watching u ...

Diona , Thank u for ur strength and support.. Thank u
I love u


End of the day ..... I am just glad I have FAITH in my heart :)

Whats next? Maybe a Tattoo of Faith near to my chest :D

cheerios

Emmanuel de manny mano

i see you again my child ..

14/11/09 at 630am ...
Little Faith returns to the Kingdom of heaven ..

Till we meet one day my child ....

the daughter that not meant to be

Hi all

its been a while...

God has blessed me with A lovely wife ( diona) , a Son ( lucas)
Few months back ... We received the news that Diona is pregnant again ...
Time Past.... And its been 5 mths plus
Went to the Gyn monthly for the regular scan .. all is well
I still remembered the 4th scan ( 4th month ) I saw Baby Faith Angel Clapping her hands.. dancing away in the womb .. i was like .. Wow .. this is a Happy baby :)

Few days back .... we went to the hospital for a detailed scan.. Diona went into the room with the techician... I was out there with Lucas...
Few minutes later , she ran out .. and then 2 techicians went into the room .. I know in my heart.. FUCK ... Something is wrong...

next moment , they asked me to enter..

They explain that there seems to be a problem .. The top part of little Faith's Skull is missing ..
they used the term " Anencephaly "

I didnt buy it... Went home ... quite upset ... Praying for a good result etc... Mass sms to ppl that i know.. ask for prayers .. and so on ...
Came Monday ... The doctor met us and said that the result is not good... i dont want to accept it as i know this is my daughter Life.. We went to NUH for 2nd OPT..

Well ... with the detailed scan and all.. i saw the 3d image of my baby girl .... in the womb ... moving gracefully ... clapping her hands... but the next thing i saw shattered my heart... right aboved her eyes... is blanked.. 1 straight layer....

Basically its Missing ... She has no " cap " to cover her forebrain .. Basically her forebrain is no where to be seen too...

Doc then explain that ... even if she comes to this earth .. she will not be strong enough to fight the infection hences she will die within mins, hours , days or months ...

He then suggested my wife to go thru labour asap... and remove baby Faith ....

This is hurting... this is the brutal truth .. i cant deny but to accept...

Pls continue to pray for us as we fight on and live on ...


Praise be to God ..

Little Faith , Daddy, mummy and lucas will remember u in our heart forever

One thing for sure... u will be in good hands of God :)

love u sweetheart ... Till we meet again ...


Papa eman