13 to 16 of jan

I been telling myself to write about Kel's wake for the longest time but didnt make an effort to...Why? Maybe i am too mentally tired , burnout... Perhaps these are just excuses...Who knws...Anyway this is my account of what happen from 13th to the 16th of jan

Kelvin's last breath...

13/jan/2006( Friday)

It was like any other afternoon, i was getting ready to train a bunch of students at Sengkang primary sch. Lionel Wong called me, telling me that Kelvin was very very weak and both of us decided to visit him on the 14th jan which eventually did not take place. At that point of time, i didnt knw wat to do .. the only thing that was in my mind was the power of prayer... I decided to mass sms to christians that i knw , within the church , outside the church ...and so on... 50+ of them ... I asked God that he will be with this family, he will grant Kelvin Peace, take away his pain , I asked God to shower peace upon Amara ( kel's mum) , Moses( kel's dad) and his family....My boss , a fellow christian ( who i wasnt quite close to ) even offered to send his prayer team down, his pastor and so on... I called Amara , she told me just pray for them ....I was really very down then ... i wanted to help so much but cant do much , all that i can do was to pray...

LATER THAT NIGHT

I was home at about 8 plus, getting ready for a jog... all ready to go ... I received a phone call from William saying that he has news that Kelvin is dead... I was like .. NO ...!!!! I called Lionel to confirmed... and it was real... He was dead.... I was devastated... I didnt know what to do ... I was sitting at a corner of my room, staring at my drumset, didnt know what to say or do .. I cried....

I called Eugene, and later i found out that Kelvin went very peacefully... his breath was constant, it went slower, and eventually , a deep breath and stop... He went so peacefully that all those around him then didnt even realised....

Kelvin's memorial service
14/jan/2006( Sat)

630pm
I went there , was supposed to play drum for the service in memory of him.. I felt weak, i kept crying . I wanted to be alone and i really cant accept the fact that he has left me...Everytime i looked up, i see the coffin and his photo, tears flows...

8pm

The service started... Eugene and EIC ( Jack, Joseph and a keyboardist ) played a few songs in tribute to Him...They even sang one of his favourtie song Aeroplane by red hot chilli pepper.. I was up next, played a few hill songs, songs that he played before and enjoyed playing... But i just cant focus... Someone even mentioned during the wake, Dont be Sad... "If Kelvin is here, this place will be full with clowns, filled with balloons and BBQ... " How can i not be ... he was my best frd..( he still and will always be ) Jacob went up soon after and shared a short message... then came the big moment... All the people were asked to pay their last respect to Kelvin... Soon it was my turn ... i saw him lying there... i was in tears.. I hugged Amara, we cried... i told her i miss him very much and i hug sharon... i was really very sad then ... Shattered.. it was like part of my life was suddenly Gone... I was really down then ... No one could console me then ... Not even Diona...

Kelvin's memorial service ( day 2)
15/jan/2006( Sunday)

All was about the same, Ray ( another EIC guy) went up sang a few songs for him, a few guys , gals went up to talk about Kelvin ...as a person, a mentor, a brother..The band was up next , i didnt play then , i was really in a state whereby i dont want to screw anything up...guess i am just a coward..

I was putting on a brave front throughout... was going around consoling anyone that i could talk to .... I went up to look at him again ... He was wearing his favourite I LOVE NEW YORK Tee shirt) He look so peaceful... I know for sure he is now enjoying himself up there...in heaven ..

Cremation day ( day 3)

16/JAN /2006

I was asked to be one of the coffin bearer... i think it is a good thing because i know it will be good for me to carry my brother One last time ...Before they seal the coffin, at that point of time, i guess i was not willing to accept that Kel is gone.... I asked Rev Poh .... What if he is still alive... what if he is only sleeping... Rev Goh looked at me, he said... " Not this one Emmanuel... Not this one .."

he was cremated... it was a very sad scenario and i was really very sad then ....I wanted to cry so badly.. but i know i cant.. i have to be strong.. and i know for sure Kelvin wont want me to be sad...

I didnt write much of the detail because i am realli lost.....pls bear with me....

yours

robin emman

31/01/06

To Kelvin... the smile will always be there...:) C ya

a tribute to Kelvin

A tribute to my beloved brother... Kelvin David

emmanuel

25/1/06

should God be blamed??

Its Really Up to Us


People always ask “Where is God when we most needed him?” People always doubt God when failure arises. They will blame God for the mistakes, the failures, the mishaps etc…

Think about it, everything has a limitation. Everything happens for a reason. Yes! Everything... No doubt God is the great one, he is the almighty, he is above all , he is the creator but the fact that causes people to suffer is actually human themselves…We , Yes , We human being destroys our own life, and just like a loser, we blame it on others.. Isn’t it the case that often that I will pin point at others for mistakes I made, vice versa…

Why do I make this bold statement? Trust me; I am not entitled to judge... No one is … remember, let he who not sin cast the first stone… Who is perfect? Human are not perfect, they are not made to be perfect, that’s where we can learn… if we are all perfect, what’s the point of education, competition and so on… Because human ain’t perfect, they often want to do things their own way … putting themselves ahead of God… I am like that at times and is learning to change …God says No! … We say yes… God says can’t! … We says never mind… God says not at all! We say just this once…Knowing that God has already warned us not to go … and we, know God don’t want us to do it, we still do it... End of the day, when trouble arises, who is to be blame? Us or God?
I am going to just give a few examples of things that happen… it might be sensitive to some but I have to write what I have to write… Maybe I am writing this in defense of God, who knows. Maybe I can knock some sense into someone, who knows… I am sorry if anyone is offended... really I am … but I have to do it …

One day, a promising young man was on the way to church, to God’s temple, he was being knocked down by a car…badly injured… People start to wonder… why God wasn’t around to protect him. Think about it, did he jay walk, or stuff like that? If so, who is to be blamed? If that’s just God’s temple that he is going… isn’t great for him to go to the heavenly home, the real temple instead?

Take my best friend, the late Kelvin David for example… He got cancer… I don’t hear him blaming God… in fact he was praising God and he was serving him whole heartily… God hears our prayer but there is that much that he can do … 85 % from God… He set the path, the set… we make our moves… God is generous… he will not force us to do things… there is always right and wrong, sadly we choose the wrong one…


We can pray whole night … day in day out… prayers answered…praise God… if not? Curse him? That’s not right…I remember how I would give thanks to God for everything that I have… if I gets E8 for my geography exam … I thank God that I didn’t get F9… I know of people who demands for A1… when they didn’t get A1…they blame God…

I am not kidding but it really did start off with Adam and Eve... God ask them not to eat the fruit, they ate...got into trouble, they blame God. When the flood was about to come, Noah ask people to join them in the ark and warned them abt the flood, they were being made fun of .. When the flood did happen... people blame God...


THINK ABOUT IT

God create the world in a week… he is all wonderful and powerful, but he doesn’t owe us a living…I am saddened by people around me who are getting all the prayer things wrongly… I am saddened with the fact that my parents are going to church for the wrong reason… Kelvin was given 3 years to repent, to get it right… do you think we will know when is our time?

For everyone out there who happens to read this… start today … learns today, change today … at least you are trying … slowly, but surely, I am sure you will be full of blessing by God and from God.

Like I said before, this is just like a game of BIG 2… Do you want to play safe and discard slowly or do you want to wait for a chance to throw all 5 cards? Trust me , if you wait, you will be shock that your cards are all in your hand and the game is over…

God bless you all…

P/s Kelvin my brother…. Aint never going to forget about ya .. Take care see you!

Love ….Emmanuel /Robin/GOF
24/1/06

its been a week... and i am viewin life differently

Well, for those who knws me , you will knw that i had always been the crazy, bubbly , attitude problem guy in town ... he he ..Well maybe i still am the joker in the crop , maybe i am still the stand up comedian that i always wanted to be but deep inside me... i know something is changin..

My Life is changing...
Yes , my life is changing.. Ever since my best buddy left us for good ( his ashes was casted into the sea ) , it makes me ponder over what we have now and whats next... it makes me think of what will happen if we are being put in his shoe, How do we react , how will we handle it ? Trust me..only a few can attain what Kelvin did... Indeed No one is perfect.. what i sees in him was the rapid change whithin the three years and he was becoming a no nonsense christian.. Yes.. he becomes that! Can i do it? I was asking...



What should i do ? A living testimony? A leader? A devoted Christian ? I am still searching ...God will knw that everyday i been praying for him to use me as his tool.. his instrument... in whatever ways possible....I know tat to live on , you also have to fight on ... Have faith, believe and honour God...

I was asking myself tat day ...how would one feel when he or she was being embarassed, humiliated? Of course, Anger will be in .. violences arise... But think about it for a second, what can be more humiliating than Jesus being asked to carry his cross, mocked by the soldiers for US.... He was innocent.. he was being mocked.. he pulled through... why cant we? Then i asked myself, what is the most painful experience which i had encountered... Think about it, my answer was NOTHING... Nothing can be more painful than Jesus being nailed onto the Cross...
Think about it , dont you agree??

( Kel and me during a gang BBQ )

Watever it is, all i have to say to everyone who is reading this( i bet there will be less than 10 , but its better than no one HA HA ) When you are down , when you are hurt, think about How jesus suffered for our sakes... if he wasnt complaining... why should we ??

I was at the WoW service today , Auntie Amara was sharing regards to Kelvin death and stuff.. One thing she said was Kelvin was fighting the battle against SATAN and he did commited some sins here and there.. he got the time to repent before he moves on .. Do we ?? What if we are not given a chance to ? What if we just die out of a sudden? I seriously urge People out there to repent and follow God as soon as you can .....

Psalm 25 ......A chapter from the bible that Auntie Amara urge each one to read about it and i think it is quite fruitful.. ppl , go check it out.... c ya

Robin
emmanuel
( God wif Us)
22/01/06


( Me, with the pigsy face, Jared, Aaron and Kel)



















Auntie Amara... A very devoted christian that i will forever be respectful of ..













I will always remember you and your favourite tee shirt of yours ...

( kelvin , before his condition worsen)











See u My brother..

Till we jam again

Robin
@@@GOF@@@

playing drum aint the same

Today i went to church for a normal band practice....Feel terrible...
Wasnt really able to play to the fullest ... my thoughts was on Kel almost all the time... No doubt i did try to put in efforts but trust me ... this is the first time ever ... i drop my drumsticks during a song like no body business....

I think i drop like at least 7 times today ... :( Think about it, Kelvin was the church Drummer too...and the stool and the drumset that i was playing on was the same one that he plays on ....

CANT ANYONE UNDERSTAND HOW SUCKY IT IS....
Gosh .. i understand Life goes on... it is easy to think that way .. trust me ... i am trying ....

sigh.....


emmanuel
18/1/06

kelvin.. a special guy

Well... i used to think that Life is short, play hard... Well, i used to believe that as long as i believe , i will go to heaven .. i dont think thats really true anymore.. Because in order to believe, YOU REALLY HAVE TO BELIEVE and commit yourself to Lord.

Firstly, You must have christ in your heart, your soul... ( like what winson said)
You need to have the salvation of the soul, not your mind, your body , etc... THE SOUL. yes ... the soul.
Friday night ( 13/1/06) marks one of my darkest day to date.. My best brother, my buddy, Kelvin David passed away and hence return to the heavenly home. He had been fighting against stomach cancer for 3 yrs and eventually moves on .. Well , you can ask me .. Hey are you happy or sad that he is dead.. As a brother, a close friend, of course i still want him around. i can be selfish to hope he is still here... but think about all the pain that he was going thru, i am glad he dont have to suffer anymore.. and he is in heaven now :)

Sure , i do miss him.... i miss those days where we have bbq together, we had a rampage in orchard, who can ever forget him holding onto a baseball bat with a ribbon ( it was his bday gift)
and we were having a wild time in orchard.. running up the escalator ( opp direction) just to catch the zhou yuen fatt ( replacement killer) for free. It was a bet with the security guard. He say if we can run all the way up , we watch the show for free.. ( lido theatre... escalator very long one , dont play play) we did it...

Who will ever forget during the BBQ, he got hit by a can of coke.. those were the days.. One thing i will never ever forget , the night when he knows he got cancer, he called me.... asked me not to be upset and make me promise him not to show extra care and concern to him due to it... It was tough for me to say yes because I CARE... but i have to respect his decision... Phone call lessen .... we still kept close to each other in church , msn ...supper, music practice...


Why cant i call him ... people will ask.... the reason why so is because we seldom call each other and just because by calling him will make him feel sensitive that i am being extra caring....
The last hours before he dies.... i received a call from lionel , he was telling me that Kel was feeling weak, first thing i thought of was mass smsing ... i sms about 50 + ppl and also urge them to forward the message to their frds.. all i request for was a prayer that God grant him peace, grant his whole family peace. Tat night , indeed , God let him go peacefully...


Kelvin , my brother.. the few regrets that i ever have are.. not to be able to meet up with you , speak to you during your last hours.. How i wish you will have a chance to drop by to jam on my drumset... i will miss you my brother...

Where should i go from here... Brother, you been an inspriation ... you really had commited yourself to the Lord, you had left an impact to people around you .. more were touched, believes..
You even awaken me .. thank you my brother... your death makes me thought of the true purpose of life... things that you keep telling me times after times...For all who thinks that money, looks, materials are everything... trust me.. these are all props.... we come as a soul... we leave as a soul, if we truly believe and really submit and we shall leave with blessing, christ in us and eternal life... think about it...
Props or eternal life.... its your choice...

A word of advise..... Live life daily as if its your last day ... ask yourself, what you going to do today ... ?

As for me.. i already know what i will and what i want to do ....a good testimony and i will continue to learn more about christ..

Your life is like a deck of cards( BIG 2) Its up to you to throw your cards.... its all in your hand....
if you want to take a gamble and wait for 5 cards... go ahead.. if you want to play safe.. better discard early then ... :) i think its better to be safe than sorry .... i will be racing on and eventually one day i will be in one of many room up there together with KEL :)


For all ppl who misses kelvin .. i have this to say to you

" For those who misses you just because you are no longer with us physically, let them be reminded that you will always be in their heart .. "

Kelvin , my brother.. i see ya again....:)

emmanuel
17/1/06

kelvin's last blog... rest in peace my brother

Kelvin David... my best brother ever...the first person i ever knew when i step into BPMC had returned to the Lord on the 13th of jan ( fri)
He was fighting against cancer for a few years but despite that , he was living a fruitful life, he was living life to the fullest... The article that you are about to read was his last entry before he move on.. He had indeed touches the heart of many .. be it believers or non believers...

you can click on the title to go to his own blog to read on .... this guy is just fantastic.. i will surely miss you my dear brother...





KELVIN DAVID
1977-2006
( we will meet again )



Saturday, November 19, 2005

Misplaced hope

The fragility and brevity of human life are easily and quickly exposed.
While we know this for a fact, its manifestation is still a great shock to us.
In a moment, it becomes glaringly apparent that life is not as lasting as we thought, that we are indeed mortal, and whats more, that we are not necessarily in control of very much at all.
We are stunned when the veneer of permanence and stability we have ascribed to our world is peeled away.
Without much consideration, we view this world, this society with its many trappings, as something steadfast and sure.

In addition, there are many ideals and virtues that we cherish.
Justice, liberty and prosperity, to name a few, are the qualities of great importance to us; they are the embodiment of what we value.
Though not tangible items, they have attained a sort of transcendent quality and seem to be beyond the attacks of ignoble mankind.
And so we believe that we have within our possession a vast storehouse of surety.
We think we have found a solid foundation on which to live and build our lives and societies.
The items that form this foundation, tangible or otherwise, have secured our trust and have become the objects of our hope.
When the things in which we hope are attacked, when the mortality of human life and frailty of our existence are revealed, we cannot help but seek out both a hope that is real and a life that cannot be destroyed.

True center

“Things fall apart, the center cannot hold.” The words of Irish poet William Butler Yeats (from “The Second Coming”) ring true to us today. Within, we sense the lack of real stability in our lives and in our world.
In such times we realize that we must find a true center, something more powerful then we or even our human society are.
There must be a center that is eternal and indestructible. This center can be found only in Jesus Christ and in the power of His eternal and indestructible life. the hope that is enduring and the life that cannot be destroyed are real and they are available to us today. Christ and the power of His indestructible life is our unique need.

Christ is the embodiment of the eternal life, a life that is uncreated, divine and everlasting.
(1) As such, he is the center of the universe, and because of him there is a definite reason why things do not fall apart. In his letter to the believers in the city of Colossae nearly two thousand years ago, the apostle Paul explained the universe in terms of this excellent person named Christ Jesus. Christ is the center of the universe, he wrote, both its point of focus and source of stability. In Christ and through Christ “all things were created, in the heavens and on the earth.” All things in this universe cohere in him. They subsist together in him. Like spokes of a wheel held together by the hub, Christ is the universe’s true holding center.(2)

Living Hope

As the embodiment of the eternal life and the holding center of the universe, Christ is the only one who can be our real security. He alone is worthy of our hope. In him we find the only way to obtain the hope of stability for which we long, because in him we find eternal life with all of its power and transcendence. Christ with his divine, eternal life is not bound by time or space.
His life is unlimited in its capacity; it is an indestructible and indissoluble life, and as such, it is not fleeting and not subject to man’s destructive acts.(3) Our only chance for obtaining real hope is found by our believing into Christ and receiving his eternal and indestructible life.


This hope is a living hope and it hinges on the eternal life.(4) while we may view eternal life as something exalted and beyond the reach of mortal men, it is nonetheless obtainable. Eternal life is the divine, uncreated life of God. Such a lasting and real life has been made available to un in Christ and through what he has accomplished. As the Son of God, Jesus came to be life to man and to give man life in an abundant way.(5) in his work on the cross, Jesus Christ was crucified for our sins, shedding his blood to redeem us and reconcile us to God. Christ’s death, moreover, released his resurrection life. the power of his life could not be held by death. Instead if remaining in the grave, he arose, becoming the life giving spirit. (6) as such, he is now able to impart his eternal life into all those that believe into him.(7) his life is the resurrection life-the only life that is true and the only life that can withstand death and rises out of it victorious. Christ and his life are those things which death cannot conquer. They are the object of our hope.


Indestructible

“he who believes into the Son has eternal life.” by believing into Christ, we receive the life that is eternal and indestructible, and with this life we obtain a living hope. As the embodiment of the eternal life, Christ is the only one in whom we can truly hope. We can no longer hope in the things we find in this world, nor can we produce true hope out of our own strength or imagination. Hope is sure only when we place it in Jesus Christ. Unlike our own human life, his life is not fading but eternal. We find real and enduring hope when we believe into him and receive his life. then, and only then, will we know and possess the power of his indestructible life.

1 John 11:25 .2 Colossians 1:16-17 .3 Hebrews 7:16 .4 first Peter 1:3 .5 John 10:10 .6 first Corinthians 15:45b .7 John 3:16 .8 John 3:36